Relapse is feeling hopeless, alone and ready to give up. It is the feeling that we are destined to be alone, a spinster that feeling you get in a tunnel without any light at the end of it. Darren felt a big void in his life. He felt alone. He felt like he was never going to find love. I am starting to sound like my therapist!!! I told him he was young. I told him what Todd had told me earlier at lunch. Gay men find love after 35. Was it true? Was Todd right? He was ready to give up on love and then he found Will. And he found real love. His friends had also found love later in life, in their 40s and even 50s.